Oops, Haven't Posted in a While

So here is a condensed version of events.

A lot of guys have come in and out, but there are a few that I've got things going with at the moment.

TBAH(The Boy At Home)-We went on a date during the summer that completely bombed, but I decided to give him a second chance a week ago and we went to a haunted house. He turns out to be a really nice guy. The thing is that he is an hour away, so I'm trying to keep a good distance because long distance relationships are hard. I don't want to be stuck up here in Logan, pining for him. So I'm keeping it non-committal, even though he is a sweet-heart.

Mr. TeddyBear-Because that is what he feels like to me. Warm and cuddly and always there for me. He brought me flowers a week ago, and he's been over here basically every night. I think I'm really falling for him. But I really don't want to hurt him at the same time.

Vicomte De Chagny-I haven't seen him in person since we were eight or nine. And I added him on facebook a while back so we talk every time we can. I'm not sure what more to say until I hopefully see him in December. He seems way nice. I just... Blah....

Mr.Whoknows-We flirt, we've hung out a few times, but he seems like one of those guys that...its hard to describe. I just don't know about his type.

Mr.Proper-We have the same ideology on dating. He's semi-cute and he knows how to dance. Our dance-date was cool. He's just a lot like my father in many ways. And he's very cautious. So we'll see what happens Tuesday.

Mr. Darcy-Again, its just the problem is that he is younger and far away. Itd be like four years before anything could happen. But we still email each other, so we'll see what happens.

Mr.Rogers-Gets home from his mission in Georgia in 5-6 weeks. I'm way excited. It'll be nice to have my best friend back.

Mr.West-I hope I get a letter one of these days. :)

Dear Boys

Got the idea from here:

http://vintagewannabee.blogspot.com/

Dear Mr. Norrington,

I'm sorry. It just isn't what I want on my end. Truly, I am sorry. Maybe in the future.

Sincerely, Elizabeth

Dear Mr. Bedhead,

Thank you for being my friend and always being willing to talk. It is much appreciated.

Sincerely, Loonette

Dear Mr. Darcy,

Just a little longer. Thats all. You should also know I want to kiss you like crazy. :)

Sincerely, Miss Bennet.

Dear Far Away,

I miss you. You will always have a place in my heart, if you want it. Please, be safe.

Sincerely, Miss Broken-Hearted.

Dear Red,

Stay safe and always stay my friend :)

Sincerely, Kayli

For now, thats it :)

I want some honest opinions if I can get any.

So there is this guy. He is like...so amazing and sweet and kind and thoughtful and all around amazing. I love to spend time with him and talk to him and just...be.

Right now, we're just friends. He's one of the greatest people I know. :)

I Am Waiting For

My Mr. Incredible

Humble, caring, sincere, and protective

My Parley P Pratt

God fearing and a true believer

My Prince Charming

Comes at the right times and makes a happy life

My Shang

Realizes what he wants and goes after it

I'm waiting and not settling because I don't want to end up in an unhappy marriage. I'm waiting for Mr. Supermegafoxyawesomehot, one that I won't let get away because he's so amazing. I want to be more than satisfied in my choice. So I won't marry just because I feel like I'm getting old or like I have to follow the crowd. I want to married for love and love alone.

I want to choose my love and love my choice.

Don't Give Up

If you really believe in the relationship, don't give up when the going gets tough. And when I mean tough, I mean fighting and bickering and spats. If there's cheating and unfaithfullness, that is a different matter. But if its a matter of leaving a cap on or off toothpaste, you need to rethink your priorities.

And if there is a relationship you want to go after, go after it. You don't want to be nagged by what-ifs.

Letting myself be hoenst with myself

Truthfully, marriage would be nice. But I can't imagine a future where I have a husband because boys are dumb. I think I want to be single forever. Have adventures, do fun stuff. I don't know. I don't really see any of the current guys I know in my future. Maybe because I diversify my interests. I like several guys right now, but any possibilities with those would take forever to end in a happy ending.

But marriage is an absolutely wonderful idea, if both parties are willing and unselfish people because then any problems that arise can be worked out and divorce wouldn't really become an option.

Boys, when not annoying can be amazing fun and you can go on really great dates with them. But some boys I want to beat with a stick.

So, the verdict is if the guy is right and the time is right and the place is right, I'll get married. Hahaha

A New Direction

Not that this hasn't always been true, but now its my motto. I'm going to allow myself to fall in love. I'm going to allow myself to be happy. I am going to be me. Not that I'm someone else, I'm just going to try to make sure that I know who I am.

If you can't guess....things just got more cemented with Kyle that I've been friendzoned. Whoopdidoo. haha. And I'm fine with that. I think....internally, probably not. But its just a bump in the road.

I'd post this on my normal blog BUT

It's romantically inclined. Sort of -.-

On my wedding day, I will wear a dress with a corset back. Its almost a must. I think corset backs are sexy. And fun to play with and get in and out of if you know what I mean ;) And as much as I didn't want a lace wedding dress when I was younger, I think they're absolutely gorgeous. But I'm going to have to try on some dresses when the time comes to see what I like.

I think I'm also going to take out my endowments and do the sealing on the same day in a temple dress and then change into the wedding dress. At least, I think that will work easiest. In regards to temple, I don't want to be the typical Utah LDS Bride and be crunched for time with pictures at the Salt Lake temple, its really pretty and all and I'd love to get married there but Bountiful is aboslutely gorgeous as well. And Logan looks pretty awesome as well. And Ogden should look lovely once it is all remodeled.

BUT it would be so totally wickedly awesome to get married in the Rome Italy temple once it is finished. Stupid fascination with all things Italian.

And I think the colors are going to be red and gold...and maybe black. And I'm going to have a white calla lily and red rose bouquet dusted in gold and some awesome gold shoes. I already have a tiara that looks stunning that is gold with lots of cubic zirconia.

And I'm not sure if I want the reception to be at the church house, but it is free, which is good. I could do an open house to supplement and have it look prettier....not sure yet.

Look at me planning all these silly things when I'm not even in a serious relationship. Haha...its a good thing to be prepared, right?

New Guy(sort of)

He's new in the sense I had never before been on a date with him, but he's been my friend...since like forever it seems. Yeah, he may appear like an emo or whatever on the outside but he has a heart of gold. I trust him with my life.

We rode the train down to Salt Lake and went to the Gateway Mall, or more specifically we went to the Happy Sumo for dinner...which is freaking amazing considering I mostly hate sushi. I tried the Mango Mama Roll which is by the way, stupendously delicious. Fresh mango and passion fruit sauce...mhmhmhm good. And we had fried cheesecake for dessert. I think I'm addicted to that cheesecake now.

After dinner, we went to the movie theater to see Kung Fu Panda 2, which is by and large a great movie. Not necessarily a comedy like its predecessor, but heartfelt and dramatic and all around good. I highly recommend going and seeing it.

Overall, a very good date :)

A Crappy Night

Long story short, he(the most recent guy I've gone on two dates with) said some words to hurt me and I was hurt. It was only after I confessed that I liked him he began to have a change of heart and confess that most of what he said wasn't true. Hmmm....That makes me suspicious, at least. But hopefully it never happens again.

“In a dating and courtship relationship, I would not

have you spend five minutes with someone who belittles

you, who is constantly critical of you, who is cruel at your

expense and may even call it humor.”

Elder Jeffrey R. Holland of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles, “How Do I

Love Thee?,” New Era, Oct. 2003, 6.

Hopefully, it never happens again. It shouldn't because....

"I hope that in the future, years from now, if you remember tonight, it will be because it was the last night I ever spoke an unkind word to you.I really care about you. I hope you don't forget that either. No matter what I may say or do that makes it seem otherwise."

So, I won't forget his promise because it will be immortalized on this blog.

As a side note, I would also like to mention that I use that quote often. I believe that everyone who is single and even married should have it memorized or at least lived by its principles because I knew a guy last summer that I met in the same circumstances as this guy and he turned out to be a deceiver. Thought it was funny to make me cry. Haha, that is all. Just stay happy.

Date Numero Dos

We went on a second date on Friday, the 27th. It was all pretty cool, we went to Sizzler and then walked around downtown again. I was suffering from a sunburn, which is halfway why it ended early.

Status: He's a nice guy and all...but I don't feel anything. Nothing, zip, nada. Like, he's a great friend and all, but I don't like him in that way...at least right now. And he wants to go exclusive, which is something I don't want right now when I'll be working practically 24/7. I'm not saying I don't like him, because I do. Its just I need to feel more chemistry before we go exclusive.

May 20th; First date in 11.5 months

So it is official. I went on a date. And the world didn't end! Take that.

Anyway, I had been trying to convince my mom to open the door because I had never met the guy and I wanted her to meet him first, but she refused. So when he knocked and then subsequently rang the doorbell because I was still getting ready, I rushed out and told him my dad wasn't home so he couldn't come in the house. Then we drove to Francisco's Mexican Restaurant in my town/city.

Did I mention he drives a manual transmission? Hahaha

Anyway, dinner went okay. We mostly talked about his mission and old companions and such. When we had finished with dinner, we still had about an hour till the movie so we spent half an hour walking around downtown, which was nice, I guess. He offered to let me drive to the movie theater, but I declined because I was worried that I wouldn't remember all that well on how to drive manual.

When we got to the movie theater, I discovered the tickets he bought was for Pirates of the Caribbean in 3-D. I had been expecting the non 3-D version. Good thing I was wearing my contacts :). So we waited for the movie to start and I discovered in the space of the movie that I was ravenously hungry. Which was annoying. But during the movie...

I laid my head on his shoulder because I was tired and all. And then I put my hand on his arm and then he started playing with it! Things ensued and long story short, we were touching for almost the whole time after that. It is the reason I hate movie dates.

And that's how the date went! He wants to go on another...oohh brother.

Third or Fourth time is the charm.

Same guy, different date. May 20th. lets see what comes up that prevents it from happening.

Why have my thoughts been dwelling?

I don't want to hurt again. None of us really ever want to hurt. But what I've been doing is really detrimental to my psyche. I can't think of anything without thinking of him. Maybe its that I haven't had a letter in a while. Maybe my mind is making too much stuff up. Its saying that he wants to get back together again, but my logical side says no. blah.

That date, April 8th.

Is now cancelled because he is low on funds. Great... :/

Now what to do....

I Canceled

My date for the 8th because I dont want my mom to freak out again. Why can't I be a normal kid?

I have a date

April 8th. lets see if he keeps it

Make Sure Your Kisses Mean Something

It doesn't have to mean something forever, but it has to mean something at the time you do kiss.

A Kiss Is:

-An act

-A promise

-A vision of things to come

-Most of all, important and sacred

I have kissed...let's count.

-1 - Z

-2 - K

-3 - BZ

-4 - A

-5 - N

-6 - J

-7 - C is iffy. very iffy.

I regret 3,4,6 and if we count 7, I regret that, too.

I regret 3 because it was a complete NCMO. And it could have gone a bit farther...if. if. if. Stupid boys.

Although 4 is an iffy one to regret, I should have realized the relationship/guy wasn't right. I was just deluding myself at the time.

6 is an easy one to regret because he right up lied to me. And when I called it on him, he called it blatant sarcasm. Again, not a very good ambassador for guys.

7, if it happened, never should have happened. I should have had better judgement.

1 was my first boyfriend so that is not one I regret BUT I do regret how we're not really friends and that he won't talk to me.

2 is......not one I regret, but I'm also a bit angry with him. And at myself.

5.......long story, but apparently we're not friends because he's like my homecoming date.

So my advice to those about to date, those who want to kiss, I say wait. Because kisses do matter. They're not the chocolate kind and once you've kissed, you've kissed. It's like virginity, and almost as important. The longer the wait, the sweeter the prize.

I know this sounds silly

But I do believe in love at first sight. Or attraction at first sight. But when I saw Ron(again, changed) at my friend's party...I wanted to go out with him. I had a strong feeling to. And so I had my friend give my number to him. That produced a three month relationship and then a few dots of dates or meet ups. I shouldn't have let him go.

Another Date Memory

Or rather the memory of my first kiss. I probably should have made it more special. But I kissed Zamini on NUAMES's Lagoon Day on the Sky Ride. It was a first for both of us. But all the same, it still happened. I don't regret it.

Since there are no new dates, I will reminesce

For now, I'm starting at the beginning because its the easiest place to start. But I will probably skip around :)

I was very lucky in my sophomore year to have prom be on my 16th birthday. In my church, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, one of the guidelines is to wait until you are sixteen to date. So the girly-girly part of me was excited. Its all I basically talked about at times, which is how I probably happened to snare my date.

We'll name him Zamini because he likes to make miniature game pieces come to life with color. We had seminary together for the first(?) half of the year and apparently he remembered me so he asked me to prom.

It was a great date and though I screwed up our relationship later, we're still acquaintances.

Fresh, New Start

So. Totally redoing this blog about dating adventures. Of which, I have had none lately. Last date was June 8th.