Yup, thats him right there. I took the picture with his cell phone during our preparation for celestial marriage class.You might be wondering if he has a name. Yes, this mysterious boyfriend does indeed have a name. On his birth certificate, it reads Todd Robert Hicken. Personally, I call him Todder, Toddery, Dear, Boyfriend and on and on.
It actually is a rather unusual story as to how we met, became friends and to where we are now at the dating stage. That is, I never thought we could be more than friends. How could I ever fall in love with a die-hard Zombie?
"Zombie?", you ask...well... at Utah State, there happens to be an on-campus game called "Humans Vs. Zombies". I started as a human and was almost able to finish as a Human, but got turned into a Zombie by Brian, who would be my boyfriend for the next two months.
I thought the relationship with Brian was going well for the first few weeks and then I found out that he had a problem. I initially thought that I would be able to deal with it and pull through. But as time went on and he continued to struggle with this problem, I just stressed out more and more and asked for advice from Todd, Brendan(another friend), and a few more trusted friends.
While I was dating Brian, Todd was trying to pursue a girl named Jessi who led him on empty paths with no intention of really dating him. When he was having a really tough time with her and was stressing out about his ailing father, being the good friend I was, I tried to cheer him up. I look out for my friends, you see, and I wanted to make sure that he was happy and well.
Semester ended and I went home, still dating Brian, and Todd still up in Logan trying to figure out what to do about girls and his father, who continued to have a few health issues.
Come Christmas time, Todd was in need of a ride to his dad's house which is four hours round trip away from my parents. As a friend, I was going to make sure he got there, even if it meant that I would be driving him myself without him paying me. He tried to find other options, but I was the only one that would work and so off we went, a two hour drive there turned to like...eight hours. It was way fun and the time with him made me realize how much I liked him.
I mean, when I had first met him, I thought that nothing more than friendship would come out of it. He didn't seem all that attractive or my type. But when I invited him out to pizza so he'd cheer up about his dad, I saw him in a light that I hadn't seen before. He was actually cute and funny. But I was dating someone, so I was like "eh, he's going after another girl" and thought nothing more of it. But after driving him to his dad's, I had to rethink.
When we arrived at his father's house, it almost felt like I was at home. It was kind of a weird feeling, because he was just a friend. His father even invited me to stay the night so I wouldn't have to drive back home in the dark and possibly hit a deer. That would have been even more strange because I had never really stayed the night at a guy's house before. His parents really took to me, which is apparently something they had never done for any of his girlfriends before. The fact that I wasn't a girlfriend was surprising for him. As I left the house, Todd offered me a hug, which I hurriedly escaped. Still a little scared at that point that I was liking him.
Since I didn't stay the night, I drove straight home, the two hour drive actually taking two hours. I get home and start talking to him on Facebook. Not very long into the conversation, I let it slip that I might like him. And he confessed that he might like me, but since I had a boyfriend, he wasn't really going to try anything. I go to bed, somewhat torn as to what to do. I like them both, but Brian was hurting me so much and I was kind of sick with putting up with it. Plus, he has yet to go on a mission and I don't know if I would be able to go through another two year wait. Not that those were the only two issues, but I was just a little confused.
I wake up and Todd's name was resonating in my mind. Over and over again, assaulting me with a ferocity that I had never experienced. My mind was made up, or rather I felt I had an answer. Todd over Brian. I wondered why I had dated Brian in the first place and the main thing my mind came up with was that maybe I needed to date Brian so I could trust and confide in Todd as a friend and get to know him. Regardless of how or why it happened, I do not regret the relationship I had with Brian. I wish things had gone better when we had broken up, but I can only try and mend things if he will let me.
The breakup with Brian actually took about a week because he kept dragging it out, rehashing old issues and stressing me out. Luckily, I was able to hang out with Todd the evening after the final break up and get some rest and peace. Unfortunately, it was only for the night and then I had to go back home for another week. I got back up to Logan as soon as possible and we became official that night.
Yes, there may be a six year difference. Yes, he might be a foot and a half taller than me. Yes, he can be rather loud sometimes, but he's mine. I've known since before we became an official couple that I would marry him. I don't know when or where he'll propose yet, but I can't wait :)
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