I'd post this on my normal blog BUT

It's romantically inclined. Sort of -.-

On my wedding day, I will wear a dress with a corset back. Its almost a must. I think corset backs are sexy. And fun to play with and get in and out of if you know what I mean ;) And as much as I didn't want a lace wedding dress when I was younger, I think they're absolutely gorgeous. But I'm going to have to try on some dresses when the time comes to see what I like.

I think I'm also going to take out my endowments and do the sealing on the same day in a temple dress and then change into the wedding dress. At least, I think that will work easiest. In regards to temple, I don't want to be the typical Utah LDS Bride and be crunched for time with pictures at the Salt Lake temple, its really pretty and all and I'd love to get married there but Bountiful is aboslutely gorgeous as well. And Logan looks pretty awesome as well. And Ogden should look lovely once it is all remodeled.

BUT it would be so totally wickedly awesome to get married in the Rome Italy temple once it is finished. Stupid fascination with all things Italian.

And I think the colors are going to be red and gold...and maybe black. And I'm going to have a white calla lily and red rose bouquet dusted in gold and some awesome gold shoes. I already have a tiara that looks stunning that is gold with lots of cubic zirconia.

And I'm not sure if I want the reception to be at the church house, but it is free, which is good. I could do an open house to supplement and have it look prettier....not sure yet.

Look at me planning all these silly things when I'm not even in a serious relationship. Haha...its a good thing to be prepared, right?

New Guy(sort of)

He's new in the sense I had never before been on a date with him, but he's been my friend...since like forever it seems. Yeah, he may appear like an emo or whatever on the outside but he has a heart of gold. I trust him with my life.

We rode the train down to Salt Lake and went to the Gateway Mall, or more specifically we went to the Happy Sumo for dinner...which is freaking amazing considering I mostly hate sushi. I tried the Mango Mama Roll which is by the way, stupendously delicious. Fresh mango and passion fruit sauce...mhmhmhm good. And we had fried cheesecake for dessert. I think I'm addicted to that cheesecake now.

After dinner, we went to the movie theater to see Kung Fu Panda 2, which is by and large a great movie. Not necessarily a comedy like its predecessor, but heartfelt and dramatic and all around good. I highly recommend going and seeing it.

Overall, a very good date :)

A Crappy Night

Long story short, he(the most recent guy I've gone on two dates with) said some words to hurt me and I was hurt. It was only after I confessed that I liked him he began to have a change of heart and confess that most of what he said wasn't true. Hmmm....That makes me suspicious, at least. But hopefully it never happens again.

“In a dating and courtship relationship, I would not

have you spend five minutes with someone who belittles

you, who is constantly critical of you, who is cruel at your

expense and may even call it humor.”

Elder Jeffrey R. Holland of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles, “How Do I

Love Thee?,” New Era, Oct. 2003, 6.

Hopefully, it never happens again. It shouldn't because....

"I hope that in the future, years from now, if you remember tonight, it will be because it was the last night I ever spoke an unkind word to you.I really care about you. I hope you don't forget that either. No matter what I may say or do that makes it seem otherwise."

So, I won't forget his promise because it will be immortalized on this blog.

As a side note, I would also like to mention that I use that quote often. I believe that everyone who is single and even married should have it memorized or at least lived by its principles because I knew a guy last summer that I met in the same circumstances as this guy and he turned out to be a deceiver. Thought it was funny to make me cry. Haha, that is all. Just stay happy.

Date Numero Dos

We went on a second date on Friday, the 27th. It was all pretty cool, we went to Sizzler and then walked around downtown again. I was suffering from a sunburn, which is halfway why it ended early.

Status: He's a nice guy and all...but I don't feel anything. Nothing, zip, nada. Like, he's a great friend and all, but I don't like him in that way...at least right now. And he wants to go exclusive, which is something I don't want right now when I'll be working practically 24/7. I'm not saying I don't like him, because I do. Its just I need to feel more chemistry before we go exclusive.

May 20th; First date in 11.5 months

So it is official. I went on a date. And the world didn't end! Take that.

Anyway, I had been trying to convince my mom to open the door because I had never met the guy and I wanted her to meet him first, but she refused. So when he knocked and then subsequently rang the doorbell because I was still getting ready, I rushed out and told him my dad wasn't home so he couldn't come in the house. Then we drove to Francisco's Mexican Restaurant in my town/city.

Did I mention he drives a manual transmission? Hahaha

Anyway, dinner went okay. We mostly talked about his mission and old companions and such. When we had finished with dinner, we still had about an hour till the movie so we spent half an hour walking around downtown, which was nice, I guess. He offered to let me drive to the movie theater, but I declined because I was worried that I wouldn't remember all that well on how to drive manual.

When we got to the movie theater, I discovered the tickets he bought was for Pirates of the Caribbean in 3-D. I had been expecting the non 3-D version. Good thing I was wearing my contacts :). So we waited for the movie to start and I discovered in the space of the movie that I was ravenously hungry. Which was annoying. But during the movie...

I laid my head on his shoulder because I was tired and all. And then I put my hand on his arm and then he started playing with it! Things ensued and long story short, we were touching for almost the whole time after that. It is the reason I hate movie dates.

And that's how the date went! He wants to go on another...oohh brother.

Third or Fourth time is the charm.

Same guy, different date. May 20th. lets see what comes up that prevents it from happening.

Why have my thoughts been dwelling?

I don't want to hurt again. None of us really ever want to hurt. But what I've been doing is really detrimental to my psyche. I can't think of anything without thinking of him. Maybe its that I haven't had a letter in a while. Maybe my mind is making too much stuff up. Its saying that he wants to get back together again, but my logical side says no. blah.